laksa =.=

freak,
todae morning i ate laksa and i had stomachache =.=
wth lor,
early in the morning eat laksa then have stomachache for whole day T.T
FREAKKKKKKKKKKKK that bowl of laksa,
nonono,
banana my stomach,
it's spicy to my stomach but not to me =.=
blame myself for eating laksa with an empty stomach,
OMG~~~
stupid laksa =.=
and i wont eat laksa early in the morning next time liao =.=
ARGH!!!
and my stupid stomach is still rumbling like siao,
damn damn damn! =.=
but..
i still love laksa! xD
hehe..
since that day i shared the bowl of laksa with weely~ x33
i fell in love with laksa~
oh,
that day was the army open house bravo company outing :D
hahaha,
:D

and seriously,
banana my stomach! =.=...

and..
yeah,
before i really start on my journey,
i should really ask what actually happened,
i dont want to kid myself,
(:

i know it aint going to be easy...
if..
it really really starts..

well,
sometimes when i look at myself in the mirror,
i will ask,
"who is this?",
i think i changed really much,
inside and outside,
really alot alot alot,
at least to myself,
i think i changed alot,
sometimes i dont really recognise myself,
i changed,
be it for someone,
or for myself,
or for something which happened to me,
i changed,
when i look at the wanyi whom i used to be last time,
i think she's really hopeless,
well,
that's in my POV,
did i change for the better?
did i?

man,
i think i need some motivation,

maybe...
i dont get screwed up too much during cca helps eh?
and maybe...
when i clear my doubts about it,
i wont be like that,

oh wanyi,
just ask :D
it wont hurt (:
it wont,
cause you've been thru worse isnt it?

yes.
i've been thru worse,
so..
what am i afraid of?
yeah,
what am i afraid of?
ha.ha.

when i say that i am a noob,
i dont mean it inside,
cause there's this part of me,
which tells me,
i aint a noob,
cause i know i aint!
hahahaha,
not funny =.=
but..
yeah,
i'll never admit defeat,
even if you win,
i'll try again,
even if you win again,
(:

i feel cold now,
and my stomach is crazy =.=
banana...
i dont care man,
i am gonna eat laksa till i dont get stomachaches =.=
ZzZZzzz..

shooting competition is on friday..
well,
if i am the reserve again,
it doesnt really matter..
cause i dont wanna screw up,
cause i know,
i aint the best,
but i know i can shoot,
if i want to shoot,

and bravo rocks :D
we own la!
monday de shooting training bravo company own! xD
hahahahhahaa,
we're like so freaking zai,
both guys and girls!
love bravo x33

next year,
we're gonna be charlie..
see..
how time flies,
bravo so fast over le..
and i still remember this year's march camp..
how horrible it was..
how our tears can almost flood the bunk x.x..
but..
it was a great experience,
at least,
when i get yelled at right smack infront of my face,
i know i've been thru that before,
and,
next year's march camp,
will be worse,
i know my girls will be there for me,
even if i'm alone,
cause i'll be there for them too (:

then...
another year goes by..
with the spec course,
and maybe senior spec course..
then we take over after ROD..
we're specialists..
then..
we move on to delta..
another march camp when we do the job as respective part ICs..
OICs.. PC... APC... RP...
all that..
yeah,
then..
another half a year goes by..
ROD will be here..
it's time for us to step down.. D:
and i think i'll cry like mad that day T.T..
man,
i wont wanna leave NCC,
i am gonna be a CLT xD
hahahaha :D

RV changed my life.
NCC changed my life.

I changed my life.