=.=

if you dont give a damn,
and i give the damn,
tell me,
how are things going to work?

it doesnt mean that we never learn before or never try before,
we cant learn right?
so,
tell me,
who was the one who said that ITS OKAY,
AND WE COULD LEARN,
tell me,
in the end,
WHO IS THE ONE REALLY LEARNING?

damn,
this is totally crap,
and there are 2 things that i am so pissed about,
again,
well,
i am a grumpy person,
that's why i always get angry,
i just hate it when people dont give a damn about things,
it concerns them and what is their reason for letting others do the job?

i am not criticising anyone on my blog i have to say it now,
before i get too agitated and start scolding people like some shyt,

yang lao shi showed us what OUR juniors can do,
yes,
the juniors,
they can write a whole page of an A4 sized paper,
of the reflections,
and why we cant do it?
we cant even do 1/4 of what they can do,
even i cant do it,
arent they really really really WOW~,
i was totally speechless,
they're only sec 1s,
and when i look at ourselves,
i dont know what we could do,
maybe just dig a hole big enough for our whole body to fit in?
then bury ourselves in that hole?
i cant find a reason why,
what's wrong with learning chinese,
when we're in a chinese school,
and we're having people who hates chinese,
wow,
that's cool,

i admire my juniors,
of what they can do and what we cant,
since they can do it,
why cant we do the same?
if we put in the effort,
we can,
but why?
is it so hard to write a reflection out?
just 400 words,
you can write an english composition with a thousand words,
but a chinese reflection with just 400 words,
why?
if we put in the same effort,
we can do it cant we?

remember the girl?
her chinese was not really that good,
but she made the effort to at least write,
write as long as she could,
at least,
AT LEAST,
it showed that she really put in the effort to write,
so tell me,
do you have any excuse to say that you have nothing to write,
just because your chinese aint as good,
even our junior can do it,
why cant we?

it doesnt matter if you see me like as if i am acting really pro,
to comment on people,
maybe you can say that i am just a sadist or whatever crap,
it doesnt matter,
i am just trying to express my feelings,
i see the juniors do it,
and i just dont know why,
we cant do it,

they write in an A4 sized book,
one full page,
when i look at ours,
A5 sized exercise book,
1/4 of a page,
w0w,
really,
it's a WOW,
i know i am being really sarcastic,

excuses,
are just excuses,

they're just excuses,
so who do you think you're then?

i am in a real bad mood now,
i'm sorry for whoever who msn or sms me,
cause,
i have mood swings,
or whatever you call that,
if i'm happy for one day,
the next day i will be damn moody,

i just dont want it to happen again,
just because i'm just a little too not over you,
cant you just give me some time?
you think a few months is enough?
you think i am wonderwoman?
no,
i aint,
you think it's so easy to get over one person?
you never tried it before isnt it?

i'd rather ignore you,
that let you ignore me,
i'd rather be the first one do it,
i dont want to get hurt,
i chose to leave,
and i wont turn back,

just let me recall the times,
cant you?
if you want me to forget every single memory which i had with you,
i'm sorry,
i cant do it,
i cant,

so what do you want from me?