pissed

i am so freakin pissed off now,
that i dont know what will happen if i continue to type,
this post may be offensive,
if i made it too obvious,
then i'm sorry,
but i will try my best not to reveal too much,

if you dont help yourself,
nobody else can help you,
this is NOT the first time things are like that,
you cant just wait for people to serve you,
because,
you are part of us,
and you should take the initiative to ask around,
AND NOT JUST SIMPLY SAY IT,
then not doing it,

i hate empty promises,
you said that you can do it,
but now it proved you wrong,

i dont know if i am making wrong assumptions or what,
but,
it really made me feel so pissed off,
because,
you said that,
i heard it with my own ears,
and now,
everything changes,
SO HOW THE HELL YOU EXPECT ME TO ACCEPT IT?
this is the first time i felt this way,

because,
i have had enough of this sort of crap,
you can say that you're suay,
because there are alot of people who did that to me before,
and now that i am venting all my anger on you,
i'm sorry,

if you bloody think that there are people,
WHO ARE RESPONSIBLE ENOUGH,
to do EVERYTHING for you,
then i can tell you that YOU ARE WRONG,
if you think you can slack forever,
then you're wrong,

people can get tired of doing all the things,
and they can just simply KABOOM! one day,
because of the kind of shyt they get from people like you,
and i am not referring to myself,
although it may seem like i am,
but i aint,

being nice is a weakness of SOME humans,
or we can say,
BEING TOO NICE IS,
well,
you can say,
WHAT IS WRONG WITH BEING NICE?
being too nice,
people will just take advantage of you like nobody's business,
and they think that you'll be nice forever and they keep giving you shyt,
so is that HUMAN NATURE?

when people step one step behind,
you will just step one step infront,
people always say,
"得饶人处且饶人，忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空"
for this damn world now,
does that still apply?
if you can forgive this person for once,
he'll do it twice,
if you forgive him again,
he'll do it thrice,
so in the end,
you tell me,
who will be the victim?
THE ONE BEING NICE RIGHT?

i am so freakin pissed off now that i might just get high blood pressure,

when people help you,
when people want to help you,
can you just bloody help yourself too?
PLEASE,
be somebody that makes the other party feel worth it to help,
even though they might not benefit,
they will AT LEAST feel that they have helped you before,
AT LEAST,
THEY KNOW THEY HAVE DONE SOMETHING GOOD,

but if you just simply think that they help you FOR FUN,
and you just dont need to do anything,
then,
I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY,
why dont you just go and banana yourself,

for every request you ask for,
there's one sacrifice for the other party,
PEOPLE ARE WILLING TO SACRIFICE THEMSELVES FOR YOU,
FOR YOU,
yes,
YOU,

"so what?
JUST SACRIFICE ONLY MA?
IT'S THEIR BUSINESS,
I HAVE ASK THEM TO HELP ME MEH?
DONT HAVE RIGHT?
SO DOES IT EVEN CONCERN ME?"

oh well,
if you're thinking THAT WAY,
THEN,
I AM TOTALLY SPEECHLESS,
YOU'RE SIMPLY A BANANA,
A FREAKIN SMELLY AND STINKY BANANA,
THAT DESERVES TO BE EATEN BY AN ORANG UTAN,
AND BE PASSED OUT AS FAECES,

okay,
i am not trying to insult an orang utan because of you,
i'm sorry orang utan~
let's hope ah meng dont haunt me at night,

i just dont know how strong my heart is to bear with all these shyt,
AND I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW COME THOSE NICE PEOPLE OUT THERE,
CAN ENDURE ALL THESE SHYT,
ARE THEY MADE UP OF "BEING-NICE-FOREVER" genes or something?
THEY ARE JUST SO NICE,
they dont bear grudges like me,
they dont,

but IF THEY DONT SAY,
that DOESNT MEAN THAT THEY DONT MIND,
HAVE SOME COMMON SENSE PLEASE,
you wont want someone whom you treat damn nicely to treat you like shyt right?
BECAUSE YOU DONT DESERVE THAT,

to nice people out there,
sometimes,
it's just not worth it for you to suffer for those people who treat you like shyt,

你把你的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上,
do you even have a heart?

nice people aint called nice for nothing,
they suffer for it,
dont they?

they sacrifice themselves,
then they get the title,
of being nice,

this world is just filled with people without hearts,
they dont even give a damn about others,

i am not going to do that if you aint going to do it,
IT'S NOT MY RESPONSIBILTY TO DO IT,
IT'S YOURS,
LOOK HERE,
IT'S YOUR RESPONSIBILITY,

i've realised,
IF I AM ALWAYS GOING TO DO EVERYTHING,
THEN PEOPLE WILL JUST THINK THAT I WILL DO IT EVERYTIME,
so i'd rather let them be,
than helping them do it,

it's sometimes not worth it,
not worth,
you exchange your niceness with shyt,
TELL ME,
is it even worth it?
YOU'RE JUST SIMPLY WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME,

i am so pissed off that i cant sleep now,
SO,
i shall do my zhou ji to cool me down,
at least,
for a little bit,

good night,
and,
hail nice people,