:/

i am damn tired now,
and my knee is more screwed up,
cause,
we pumped todae!
FINALLY~
i hear the damn zai sentence,
"KNOCK IT DOWN!",
we damn long never knock le,
like,
for the whole of more than 6 months,
since the day we pumped until we almost died after orienteering as a company,
we never pumped before,
and i hate it,
cause,
NCC needs pumping,
this explains why my hands are trembling cause of no support during yesterday's IMT,
CAUSE,
TOO LONG NEVER PUMP LE,
NO MORE STRENGTH LE,
ARGH!!

so i agree to pumping,
no matter how hellish it is going to be,
i just want bravo to push ourselves and do our best,
even though,
it may not be like,
the specialist MUST have an exact reason to pump us,
we can still pump isnt it?

what we pumped todae,
compared to the 160++ pumpings we pumped with the bravo guys last time,
it's totally,
just,
if i put it in a nicer way,
it's nothing compared to what we pumped last time,
and i think,
the specialists have their reasons for pumping us,

i am sorry,
cause i didnt act as if i cared about you girls,
but,
i dont think that was necessary,
what happened last time,
during march camp and after that,
i learnt a lesson,
specialists aint perfect,
and they have their own reasons,
so i respect them,
it doesnt mean that i am being a sadist here,
acting as if i love pumpings and scoldings,
NO,
i aint that way,
if you're thinking that way,
so be it,
cause,
you dont understand me at all,
you know i aint that kind of person,
its like who want to get pumped and scolded for nothing right?
i just want to endure,
cause the feeling of enduring as a whole platoon,
as a whole company,
feels shiok,
even if our hands and knees are going to bleed,
we know that we have the whole platoon to bleed with us,
we're not alone,
when we endure,
we must know that we have the whole platoon enduring with us too,
isnt it?
one for all and all for one,
that's what i love,

simply one sentence like,
"KNOCK IT DOWN!",
makes me feel shiok,
cause i know,
we're going to go thru this hell,
TOGETHER,
as a platoon,
as bravo girls,
(:

and what we did,
i think it was too hurtful,
cause,
if my cadets were to do that to me,
i think i'd T.T..

i am sorry if i acted as if i didnt care,
i just dont want to add on to anything,
cause,
just one person can influence the whole body,
i just dont want to add on,

or maybe you can say,
i'm sort of like always extra,
so i aint going to be extra,

i am just stating my point of view,
if you read this and feel that i am wrong,
i'm sorry,
cause this is just my point of view,
and i am not trying to target at anyone kay?
i respect your views,
and your thinking,
and i respect what you do,
i thought about it on the bus,
and that's what i need to say,

one day,
we're going to be specialists,
too,
and if our cadets were to do that to us,
i dont know..
i'd feel really hurt inside,

and i am sure,
i wont pamper my cadets,
what's wrong is wrong,
giving too many chances,
just let them be in their own ways,
cause,
sometimes,
we need punishments to wake up,
we need to be scolded to wake up,
just like march camp,
march camp is when,
we all improve like the greatest,
isnt it?
that's what i felt la (:

and that's all for NCC,

AND YEAH~~
NOW EVERYONE KNOWS JINGFEI IS A MARKSMAN!!!
HAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA
OMG OMG~~
JING FEI MARKSMAN LEH~~
HAHAHHAHAHA
jing fei rocks la! xD
hehe,
runzhong is ex-marksman,
LOL!
damn funny la,
HAHAHHAHAHHAA
AND BOTH FROM 2E DE LEH~~
so proud of my bravo guys :D
hehe,

oh yea,
and my score changed le,
it's,
3,
3,
1,
1,
total 8/16 bullets shot,
wah fainted,
JUST PASS ONLY T.T

and yeah,
todae's PE,
ZHENGHAN DAMN ZAI LA!!
OMG~~
hard to block him,
hard to pass the ball with him around,
zai man :D
shows that i am a noob :/
awwww,
HECK CARE LA,
NETBALL NOT MY CCA :P
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAA
i think right,
play the attack side de more fun lor,
GS and GK veh boring de :/
aww..
that's all for PE,

physics,
was =.=,

recess,
ate with alvin,zhenghan and yijin,
hee,

hcl,
if i aint wrong,
was okay la,
and i was 3 marks away from an A1,
OH BANANA =.=
ALWAYS LIKE THAT DE LOR,
LAST TIME WAS ONE MARK AWAY FROM A1 FOR HCL,
NOW IT'S 3 MARKS ALL THANKS TO MY DAMN ZUO WEN!!!
WAH BANANA MAN =.=
I DONT KNOW WHEN CAN I GET AN A1 FOR CHINESE LA,
SO BANANA LOR :/

geog,
oh was really cool,
cause i fell asleep in the computer lab while watching the video,
HAHAHAHAHA
really damn shuang,
sleep in computer lab,
hehe,
xD

computer lesson,
quite okay la,
just do homework only,
and i think mr wong veh pissed off leh,
dont know why o.O

lang arts,
went thru comprehension passage,
and i think mdm choo really damn funny la,
LOL,
haha,

then after class right,
runzhong,alvin,zhenghan and jingfei,
LOL!,
damn funny eh the guys,
LOL!,
laugh laugh laugh,
LOL!!
HAHAHHAHAHAH
really damn funny la,
xD
hehe,
so hyper de,
brotherhood (:
hehe,

in conclusion,
we need friends,
i will never never never say,
"i dont need friends",
ever in my entire life,
and even if i say it,
for example in a drama o.O,
i dont mean it la,
LOL,
ahahhaaha,
we need friends,
we need buddies,
isnt it?
"i dont need friends",
is a totally retarded and ridiculous sentence,
think you big ah,
dont need friends,
=.=

the feeling of doing everything together :D
haha,
and yepps,
agree to runzhong (:
next year,
i want to get marksmanship,
and i never had such a desire for such things,
GPA and awards,
i dont really desire for them,
but for marksmanship,
i have no idea,
it's just like a dream,
i want to have that dream come true,

just like,
it's my goal to achieve marksmanship,
i have a goal in life (:
i want to be a marksman,
i want to :D