(:

well,
the last day of school was yesterday,
and yesterday,
i feel like,
i suddenly grow up le,

2 years of sitting in the same classroom and listening to classes,
2 years of talking and chatting and playing and doing everything together,
2 years of friendship,
2 years of memories,

its like so fast,
over le,
2 years,
it's so fast,
and i was like thinking,
how come it felt like nothing,
and then suddenly,
BOMB!
the last day of school arrive le...
cant really accept the fact,
so i was feeling freaking sad yesterday,
cause,
we aint in the same class anymore,
next year,
we have new classmates,
and maybe,
the people you're really close with wont be in the same class with you anymore..
D:

when you have the choice to do anything you can,
you dont know what to do,
when i know that i can do it for you,
i dont know if i should,

triple science,
geog,

physics chem,
geog,

its just a matter of whether i take bio or not,
or,
i can take physics chem and two AEMs,
but,
i dont know,
its a 9 subject combi,
and my heart tells me that,
if i take triple science,
i will be freaking stressed and i will die =.=..
forget it,
shant think about subject combi so much,

yesterday night..
played gunz again,
aint gonna talk too much about it,
cause there's so much to talk about,
and i dont know what to talk about,
just that,
when you get owned by backstabbers,
you get freaking pissed off,
especially when you're not playing in training =.=...
"people zai not wrong right?",
i said that myself (:
and i think PORK is veh cute :P
haha,
some parts of me,
hates zai kias like him :X
but some parts of me,
love the way he kill,
SO COOL LA!
fly fly fly fly,
slash slash slash,
you die le o.o
AND I LOVE AIR SPRAY!!
but dont do it to me in DM =.=
if not you die! D;
rawrrrrr x.x

i feel so tired now,
and,
i have muscle aches all over,
pain sia..
thanks to the pumpings on the last day of school,

and i love yesterday's NCC act,
ALOT ALOT ALOT!
cause for the FIRST TIME other than march camp,
BRAVO COMPANY COMBINED!
omg~~
feel so cool sia xD
only 6 bravo guys,
out of 20+ of them,
went for ncc act yesterday,
zai lor they all! =.=
only,
zhenghan,jingfei,
clement,jianting,
jionghow,yiming,
went,
not funny lor,
ONLY 6 nia =.=

and then,
it was raining,
so we had some IFC lessons,
yeah,
tio owned,
cause we neh shout,
but,
it feels great,
cause,
WE VEH LONG NEH SHOUT LE!
and i miss that feeling of everyone shouting "YES STAFF!",
or "YES SERGEANT!" together,
and then we OWN EVERY OTHER CCA :P
xD
HAHHAHAHAHHHAA
long time neh shout like that le,
and long long long long long long long long long long long long long long time,
neh kenna pump and shouted at and scolded like shyt le,
that's why,
i love yesterday's act,
cause you can see,
cause you can feel that,
every single one of us,
are trying our best to give standard,
(:
we get pumped cause we neh say how many pumpings we owe for not shouting,
pumped 20,
carried on by another 20,
actually it was quite tiring,
but,
you see your platoon mates and company mates endure with you,
you tell yourself,
"one for all, all for one, i wont give up!",
(:
then you endure,
yeah!
THAT'S THE SPIRIT!
no matter how tough it may be,
thinking of others enduring with you,
you will do the same too,
after we recover from pumping right,
actually wanted to do C&C de..
but..
sighs T.T..
we tio knocked again,
shant say why,
but,
you know..
we actually owed 50 for that something,
(:
in the end only pump 15 cause our timer hear wrongly,
but heng lor!
neh pump 50,
if really pump 50 i going kill people liao,
40+50 is like,
90 in one shot,
T.T
not bad sia x.x
so long neh pump le,
then now pump 20+20+15=55 in one shot,
you tell me how to not get muscle ache lor!
but,
50 pumpings aint really tough last time T.T
too long neh pump le!

i remember last time orienteering that time right,
we pumped as a company (:
last time its like hang there veh long,
pump 50,
then another 20,
then hang again,
then scold scold scold scold,
then pump again,
scold scold scold pump again,
the last time bravo combined to pump as a company,
was freaking SHIOK! xD
cause we're really really really giving in our everything,
just for the specialists to say "recover!",
you dont ask me how i know,
it's just,
you know it cause you can feel that impulse,
you can hear your comrades,
shout till their voice going hoarse and going break le,
then you can even see their face turning red,
yes,
that's it,
and i really miss that time,
when all the specialists,
yelled and shouted at us,
while our hands and knees were on the concrete ground of the tennis court,
in fact,
i miss the 200+ pumpings we pumped each,
that time,
after orienteering...

okay,
back to yesterday's act,
i was feeling really really really agitated that time,
cause,
i know,
jingfei is new,
and he didnt go thru our Part A life,
and he didnt go thru the first march camp of our ncc life last year,
i know this may be an excuse,
cause we are supposed to know how to bang and fall out and all that other stuff,
for a Part B cadet now,
but he joined us for less than half a year,
we cant expect him to know everything we learnt in ncc for 1.5 years,
in just less than half a year,
and somemore,
all the basic and complicated drills like insprak and yang tinggi,
jingfei know le,
he really improve alot le lor!
its like he's freaking zai already,
for a cadet,
in ncc for only less than half a year,
knowing the drills for the cadets like me,
who is in ncc for almost two years is freaking freaking zai,
yeah,
i still remember the first week he joined ncc,
he didnt know how to clench his fists,
now,
he can do the drills with his platoon,
cool isnt it? (:
you get what i mean,
like,
he dont know timing he can learn,
he dont know which leg to bang he can learn,
he dont know how to fall out he can learn,
he dont know how to tie bootlace he can learn,
isnt it?
Part B cadet without Part A life,
that feels so evil..
cause in Part A life,
we learn all the basics,
we made all the mistakes we made,
and our dearest specialist would correct them one by one,
in Part A,
we learn how to shout,
we learn how to bang,
we learn how to time,
we learn how to take initiative,
we learn how to endure,
we learn how to command,
we learn how to tie bootlaces with specialists teaching us for many many acts,
we learn how to wear our uniform properly for ONE WHOLE YEAR,
we learnt all the basics,
for one whole year,
we made mistakes,
for one whole year,
we have people to correct our mistakes,
for one whole year,
but he dont have that one whole year,
he didnt,
you get what i mean ma?

jingfei,
is a freaking zai cadet,
and i was thinking..
if runzhong could give his Part A life to jingfei..
and jingfei could give his choir year 1 life to runzhong...
haha,
that would be really good yeah? (:
right? my dearest table partner? xD
haha,
(:

in other words,
specialists are still specialists,
we should respect them kay?
(:

man,
i will freaking miss staff qianying D:
cause we changing PC le..
sadded,
qianying rocks!!!! xD
haha,
its like last year i used to stick with her,
cause,
she's my PSL,
and she is my lance coporal also (:
hehe,
now,
she's my staff,
and i am her cadet,
waaaaa,
the difference so big hor? :X
hehe,
but i love her lor! xD
hehe,
will miss her damn damn loads and loads de...
D:
awww..
i dowan change PC ):
sad,

i feel so,
i dont know how to describe now,
yesterday was even worse lor,
stomachache at the heart,
cool description budd (:
and it really feels that way,
todae not so painful le,
which is,
a good thing (:

i dont know why,
is it because i changed too much?
till everything gets too awkward?
well,
i dont really know,
this sort of stuff right,
veh complicated de,
so shant talk about it,

you know why i wanted to sleep?
it's cause,
when i sleep,
the stomachache in the heart,
will be gone,
cause the pain will be gone,

todae when i woke up,
i pressed the button and scrolled down,
well,
i dont know,
i'd wish,
i could sleep for the whole day and not wake up anymore..