D;

i miss you boy,
for this time when i needed someone,
to look at o.O
to talk to? O.O

well,
i just want to have a company,
maybe a guy,
to share our thoughts or something,
someone who dont think too much,
someone who dont add stress to me,
someone who just could make me smile,
someone who just could make me feel that i could do it,
someone who just makes me feel good,

maybe i wished i had edward with me,
i dont mind a guy being overly protective towards me,
;D
and i wished i had a werewolf as my best friend,
lols,
jacob black,
i've been reading these few days,
and that wo0~! feeling,
damn cool,
i love it ;D

so you say,
wanyi is so free that she came here to blog,
yeah right,
cause,
i am bored studying,
so i came here,

for the sake of 2 hours,
we studied day and night,
sighs,
what had MOE done,

after the 2 hours,
i have another 10 hours,
10 hours spend wisely,

i've never tried this studying system before,
who invented it anyway,

jingfei,
you can do it,
the hope to the guys' revolution?
;D
perhaps,
jiayou,

i feel scared,
it's true that mid years aint anything,
is it that i am too comfortable with what i always had,
is it that i am too used to what i always got,
that i could not even have the courage to fail just once,

so what if i failed,
so what if i passed with flying colours,
i cant get the answer anymore,

it may look better,
but the fact is that,
there are people who are a thousand times better,
but they dont have to be recognised,

sighs,
perhaps,
it's just like primary school,
everything changes once you advance forward,
when you're far away from where you used to be,
there will be more challenges in your way,
cause you chose that path to take,
it's your own choice,
you cant turn back,
like you are running in a race,
if you stop,
you will lose everything you accumulated,
then you will have to start from scratch,

i feel scared,
i am scared of dont know what,
is it that two bloo*y hours of concentration on a few sheets of paper,
or is it that i am scared of that piece of paper,
with decimals on it,

i lost something this time,
i lost something,
and i dont know what is that something,
motivation?
perhaps doing jumping jacks can help,
confidence?
perhaps,

i can do it,
i cant do it,

i want to do it,
and i can do it,
confidence?
lacking of it,
boo,

i think i shall sleep early every single night,
from after the june holidays onwards,

what is life,
what is life,
what is life,

what is no life,
what is no life,
what is no life,

i dont wanna think so much about life,
if my life could be as simple,
as,
having a husband and kids,
and live happily ever after,

okay,
now i shall try to get a boyfriend then,
lols,
kidding ;x

i've 2 presents to give out tomorrow,
a birthday present,
another present,
or perhaps,
a love letter? O.O
haha,
kidding,

good luck all,
it's show time tomorrow,
jiayou,

boy,
all the best okay?
;D
good luck,

橙子很想菜花 <3