=.=

let me warn you,
dont you ever insult my cca,

ALL UG ROCKS,
AND NCC IS THE BEST OF ALL,
AND I LOVE NCC,
LIKE HELL,
MORE THAN ANYTHING I LOVE,
MORE THAN HOW I LOVE HIM,
THAT'S SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT,

i got enough of -toot- people saying that UGs ****,
i was just being ULTRA NICE not to slap you on ur cheek,
and punch you in your guts,
or even push you down on the ground,
and just kick you like some dummy,
i am just afraid that i might even kill you,
argh!

i am just so damn proud to be in ncc,
and i just get bloody pissed,
when some **** or some ***** just,
say bad stuff about it,
i just get,
FREAKKIN PISSED OFF,

i dont know why,
i was freakkin angry,
these few days,
i feel like swimming,
or running like mad,
non-stop,
i just wish i could sleep and never wake up,
or i can read romance books and never stopping,

i realise,
there's no use listening to songs anymore,
jay chou only makes me emo,

hmm,
i should try singing and yelling,
yes,
that solves the problem,
temporarily,

why am i so grumpy?
i know someone asked me that before,
so,
the answer is,
i am born like that,
does that answer statisfy you?
enough?

i am getting real,
mean,
and black,
and i used to be purple,
and i will be black-green,
black and evil,
green and jealousy,
and i realise that black is not cool at all,
it's just a colour that lets you camouflage yourself in the dark night,
and you can just stab somebody in the heart out of nowhere,
out of a sudden,
you stab that somebody,
and that somebody dies,

what it takes to be happy?
life is short THEY all say,
yes,
it is veh easy to be happy THEY all say,
yes,
and why dont they just shut up?

if i could just dig out my heart and let it rest somewhere,