T.T

i want to have brains,
but not just brains,
and not only brains,

todae,
someone really special told me something,
it was really meaningful,
:D
thank you (:

i've found my reason for saying that it isnt everything,
(:
so what if we score a good grades now and cant do anything in the society?

lols,
i find myself so hopeless,
what else can i do other than doing what i am doing everyday?

i shall think about it more,
before i come to a conclusion,
and state my stand,

todae,
i drank coffee again,
for the sake of maths test,
and if it werent for that cup of coffee,
i can tell you that i am really going to faint this morning,
T.T


for the whole day my eyes were like closing,
but my mind was conscious,
really conscious,
and what's before my eyes,
were so blurr..
and the light which shone into the classroom was so damn bright,
LOL,
sounds like an essay o.O
but it's really real irritating,
i am so damn tired but the caffeine in my body keeps me awake,

history was the first lesson,
and..
it was quite okay,
if i pissed you off,
i'm sorry,
because,
i dont like to stick to one particular person,
because i am not some superglue wanyi,
it feels great to work with people whom you dont really work with,
and when you can help that person out,
you should help,
and not to just make fun of that person and despise him/her,
yes,
and it was really fun to work with hanyu,jingfei and jennshyang (:
then i realise that hanyu is really damn shuai~ :33
hee~

later was maths test,
my 5 marks POOF because i skipped that question 5 T.T
just hope that i can get my A1 back,
i got no idea what happened to my maths,
it used to be one of my strongest subjects,
:/

hcl,
talked about "nie nie zu",
LOL,
sounds damn sick @.@
then just crap lo,
nothing really much T.T

recess,
was real crappish,
cause in the middle of recess we have phototaking,
but everyone havent even eat,
banana la..
=.=...
and then stephanie go talk to the ..
umm..
photographer O.O..
then he gave us more time to eat,
ya..

then..
we had phototaking..
and i did something really stupid,
when the photos come le,
i dont know what will happen,
T.T


AND MRS TAN SAY MY HAIR MESSY =.=
BANANA LA,
i go stare into the mirror for 3 seconds,
I DONT FIND ANYTHING MESSY ABOUT MY HAIR LA =.=
BANANA..
and then mrs look said my hair was strange in the morning,
when terence and i went to check the phototaking schedule,
strange and messy,
well~
that's my style,
CANNOT MEH?
=.=
banana,
i think my hair not messy lor =.=...
and i love my hair :P

and yeah,
this is something really random,
yesterday have CCA,
then drill for the whole act,
i have sunburn at my neck there,
behind my neck,
for the first time it was burnt and red,
cause i tied my hair,
T.T
it was like so stupid la,
one big burnt and red circle around my neck @.@..

after phototaking,
was lang arts,
did haiku :D
HAHAHHAHA,
OMG LOR :D
ZHENGHAN AND I WROTE ABOUT NCC DE :D
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA!
zhenghan write about pumping and i wrote about drills :D
OMG WE LOVE NCC LIKE SIAO~~
:D:D:D:D:D

"beads of water rolling down,
standing tall, looking proud,
landed one solid bang,"

then mdm choo say i writing about the rain,
BANANA LA,
have water doesnt mean is rain can?
=.=...
ONE SOLID BANG~
hee~
my passion for ncc is FOREVER BURNING~ xD

i was freakin tired for champs,
then we learnt about money,
this was when that special person told me something,
(:
to tell the truth,
i didnt like the champs workshop,
and the stock market was the best part,
because,
it really made us use our brains and think,
and all these doesnt require things from our textbooks,
i admire felicia and alvin :D
really,
(:
from the bottom of my heart,
i really admire them,
can only use one word to describe them,
ZAI,

it's time i really look at the world,
how much others know and i dont know,
i shouldnt be reading what's in the textbooks anymore,
because,
when we grow up,
those textbooks can be used as toilet paper =.=
we dont need them anymore,
when we go out to work,
everything changes,

it doesnt mean that you'll possess everything you have now,
i want to find myself back,
the wanyi i used to be (:
i do things for the sake of doing,
i dont need to care how others think of me,
as long as i know i already did my best,
i know i've did it,

does the result matter so much?
does it?

how much i've screwed up,
how much i score in the end,
what's the decimal..
so what?

maybe life's like that,
we change with our surroundings,
with the people we meet,
with the kind of environment,

i've changed alot alot,
if confining myself would work,
why cant i try it?

the more we know that person,
the more we start to see flaws in them,
the problem is,
can we accept them?


people change,
people take things for granted,
human nature?

so is being self-centred..
human nature too?
if i'd always thought of only me and myself,
i guess i did,
i've never spared a thought for others,
must change it,

it's good be to selfish sometimes,
we give and take,
yes,
but,
what if,
you have already given your everything,
and in the end,
you take nothing back,
isnt that pathetic?
give and take,
some people just take and they dont give,

if you dont understand the situation,
can you please stop making assumptions?
and can you listen to us?
even though we can speak a little soft,
but can you please make an effort to listen to us,
it's your duty to do so,
i suppose,

i am not criticising anyone,
i am just typing out what i felt,
then..

we're the students,
listen to us,
could you?


what've i done wrong?
or i've been too sensitive,
your angry glare,
if you found a problem in me,
i dont know,
i wouldnt have the courage to ask you,
"is there anything wrong with me? did i do anything wrong? can you please tell me?",
i dont have the courage to ask you that,
i dont,
i really dont,
but why?
is it because of biasness?
is it?
i know my ___ ___ sucks,
but,
it doesnt mean that i dont have the heart to learn,
if i've utterly disappointed you,
what have i done wrong?

i'm sorry,
i just need to know the reason,

they always say,
"if you dont tell us,we cant help you",
so now,
i wanna say,
"if you dont tell us, we wont even know what's wrong",

if i could read people's mind like Edward,
if i have the ability to do so..
(:

well,
i am feeling real tired,

let's hope the english presentation goes well,
if we all do our part,
we'll do well,
i hope so,

it's like taking a risk,
to know them better,
or to screw myself up,


okay,
there's music tmr,
and i really hope we can come up with a nice piece of music,
3 ncc cadets,
1 track,
1 volleyball,
if the module wasnt music,
but drills,
we'll own :D

AND BANANA LA,
WTH,
NCC WHOLE UNIT DONT HAVE TAKE CCA PHOTO,
BANANA LA,
WTH,
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG LA,
OUR UNIT LIKE 160 CADETS,
CANNOT FIT INTO ONE PHOTOGRAPH MEH?
JUST MAKE LIKE 5 LAYERS FOR US TO STAND LA,
BANANA..
EVEN NPCC AND SJAB ALSO HAVE THEIR UNIT PICTURE,
WHY CANT NCC HAVE LA,
BANANA LA,
WTH,
BANANA..
IF NCC TAKE UNIT PHOTO,
IT'LL BE THE COOLEST AND BEST CCA PICTURE EVER!!!
YOU'LL SEE ALL THE NCC CADETS IN NUMBER 3 AND NUMBER 4,
OMG!!!!!!!!!
AND IT'S LIKE THE WHOLE RV NCC UNIT,
BOYS AND GIRLS UNITS COMBINE INTO RVNCC UNIT,
OMG OMG OMG~!!!!!
OH MY GOD...
WTH LA,
BANANA LA,
NO UNIT PHOTO..

160 is the estimated value of the number of cadets anyways,
cause,
there are 4 parts in rvncc unit,
alpha,bravo,charlie,delta,
then have split guys and girls,
so total is 8 parts,
and then each part have almost 20 cadets,
so 8x20 = 160,
:D
OMG LA,
OUR UNIT SO ZAI :D
NCC ROCKS LIKE NOTHING ELSE,

AND I CANT IMAGINE HOW COOL AND ZAI OUR UNIT PHOTO WILL BE,
IF WE EVER TAKE A WHOLE RVNCC UNIT PHOTO,
XD