boo.

how come guys are that important?
why cant i stop thinking about them?

yesterday night.
i did 30 situps.
and 30 is a nice number.

todae was a billion times worse than yesterday.
why i dint blog yesterday?
cuz i dint have the time to.
maybe i stayed out for your sake ;D
hoping that i could see you buying bubble tea..
and maybe simply just say a "hi" or "bye"

yesterday
was the very first time
that my heart was racing like mad.

me: "hello jasmine!"
jasmine: "wanyi,______ is inside,he took the same bus as me,you go in ;D"

then i started to smile as if i saw you.
and my hyper level was reaching 100% ;D
but when i went inside,i couldnt see you in the queue.
hmm.. so i kept looking around but couldnt find you.
when the bus came,you appeared outta nowhere.
;D
dint get to say hi to you.
but i said hi to that cute cute part c guy instead.
and i was saying this "i must do it"
i saw the long queue and i wondered if anyone sat beside you on the bus.
after i boarded the bus,i looked around.
and i couldnt see you again.
i strolled towards the back and i looked around ..
and yeah,i saw you ;D finally.
sitting at a place you probably dint like to sit at.
and i was hoping you aint sitting "on pier" again ;X
lucky u aint ;D
i saw you so i sat down too ;D
it was a dead hi.
maybe you're tired.
i was too.
but my hyper level was exceeding my 100%.
and my heart was racing like some F1 racecars.
i told myself to sleep and stop staring at you.
almost impossible ;P
lol.
and i realise i was listening to some hyper and happy songs.
reason why i cant sleep..
so i tried jay chou's and i was half asleep ;X
and i think i touched something o.O
did i or did i not?
man,my head was dangling in the middle of nowhere ;X
we didnt even say a thing.
not even a word.
again.
silence.
and it dont speak louder than words yeah.
wondered why you aint sleeping too ;X
this was what i wanted to do since last year.
and i ask myself how come i was so humji last year and for the past three months.

alighted and still dint say anything.
thank you for not pangseh-ing me ;D
like you always did ;X
and i was so dumb ;@
"do you have cca todae"
oh my god.
it was just like monday.
but that was better ;D
obviously ;DD
what kind of question could i ask? ;/
hmm..
perhaps i am just too dumb that i couldnt even dare to talk to you.
walked up and yeah,i was feeling damn hyper ;D
for some reason.
something just managed to glue my heart up.
like it's such an easy job ;D

lessons for tuesday.
oh,what actually happened?

actually everything went quite well until before we went for cca.
and i remember laughing at runzhong and jingfei.
zhihe was crapping with me too ;D
and thank goodness man.
i know hubert's crapping ;D
yeah,i dont want reminders ;X
and there was this paper bird =.=''
neh mind.. ;@

cca.
was nothing much.
and i couldnt believe that we could give such solid bangs while drilling in the canteen.
solid solid solid.
everything was simply just too cool to be true.
i love it.
and i yelled my love for ncc in the cheer ;D
nothing much happened.
all was so ... =.='''
neh mind.
the rest i shant cont.

and i saw god jie that morning.
she grew taller and grew chio-er ;D
haha,my god jie leh~
what do you expect man.
i missed her loads and loads and loads.
we had a chat.
and i felt so good.
god jie,i missed the times we spent together.
and the times we got crazy over the same guy ;X
lols.
that felt so.. cool.
i havent seen god jie for like months and months.
she is my god jie,chianghuiying.
i miss her.
i love her.
although we're in different schools now.
hope we'll meet again in university.
if i could make it that far.

in conclusion,for yesterday.
i didnt know where did i get my balls from to sit there.
i am such a dumb person who dont even dare to sit beside a guy ..
i am such a childish person who got so happy just cuz of that .. ;P

so i shall start with todae.
todae was totally lamee.
like some shytzz.
morning started off extremely bad.
i dont like gatherings in the morning.
spoils my mood.
and i was listening to jay chou's music unknowingly.
saw hasee ;D and i missed her loads <3<3<3<3<3
haha
got on 97 ..
blah.blah.blah.
i made a wrong guess todae.
i am so dumb.

you were already in school .. ;X
lols.
neh mind.
went to gathered with my bravo girls.
and some shytzz happened.

puppy: "eh you,gryphon house,COME HERE!"

me: *walks to puppy

puppy: "YOU GO STAND THERE AND HOLD THAT POLE THERE!"

me: "but teacher,i have got ncc stuff to do."

puppy: "I DONT CARE,YOU GO STAND THERE"

me: "but i relli have to join my cca"

puppy: "I DONT CARE,YOU ARE GOING TO FIND A REPLACEMENT FROM GRYPHON,
OR ELSE YOU WILL BE STANDING THERE!GO FIND NOW!"

eff man.
this totally made my hyper level dropped to negative 100%
bloody hell.puppy totally..sucks.
no idea why i called him puppy.
it's a nicer word for
d
o
g

YOG launch was totally boring.
march past seemed like stroll past.
damn.
if you call that marching..

lessons.. i shall only talk about science and hcl.

hcl.
i totally dozed off again todae.
oh my god.
i cant get my eyes to open.
and i dint wanna go and wash my face.
my water bottle rocks =.=
and runzhong was told to stand up and shake his body.
cuz he was dozing off in class too ;X

science.
boy,stay strong,like me ;D
wo0ps,i am being buyaolian ;X
science.
was bad.
again.
and i think chemistry aint a subject for me.
and i think i forgot what ms foo taught.
;X
other than atomic structure ;D
lol.
lamee shytzz.

home econs.
we made brownies with 200g sugar
and todae,i swallowed 100g of sugar
goodness.
dont wanna talk about it anymore.
the lemon barley we made totally sucks.
=.='''

after school.
thank you for your bye ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
thank you seowhwee for ur muffin ;DD
it's damn nice ;D
thank you alvin for scaring me ;@
i seriously tio shocked man.
lollol.

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mac with seowhwee,jingjing,ken,laoma.
...
my bad.
my bad.
my bad.
and get well soon ken.

and i saw zixian at mac with jiaqi and another guy ;D
yaye.
but zixian looked veh dao D;
neh mind.
part b guys are like that D;
*heart shatters

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i was thinking and thinking.
why i was so sad.
like i said.
i need sleep.
and plus that puppy's crap.
and plus that lamee YOG launch.
and plus that damn lemon barley.
and plus that stupid and lame homework.
everything was totally =.=
i hope we dont need to attend school.

zhihe asked me something.
then i told him that i have no more passion to study.
he kept quiet.
then he said.
"numb le"
yeah.
i am numb.
of going home and chionging homework till midnight.
i am numb.
of chionging homework and i cant sleep.
i am numb.
of doing everything with my 100%.
i am numb.
of doing the same things every single day.
i am numb.
of my lifeless life.
...=.='''
no link but neh mind.
i am a dumb kid.

i want the best out of me.
but yet i dont put in effort.
i dont want to be better than you.
as long as i knew i did my best.
everything is alright.
term 2 is bad.
how come i could actually forget whatever i learnt.
i said when i dont give a damn,things come out better.
is it true that when i dont give a damn,it'll be good?
maybe i was just too lucky.
yeah.
i was just too lucky.

tmr is maths.
graphs.
if looking at answers can make me understand.
...

i regretted for not blogging yesterday.
if not that post would be like damn damn hyper.
i am tired and i still needa do my bloody science asg i dont even understand at all..

jiayou OM peeps ;D
must stay strong and good luck for competition ;D
you all endured so much and now,it's show time... xD

todae.
i shall stop here and do my HOMEWORK.

-history essay
-science asg
-geog proposal..
i'd wished i worked with guys D;
i still owe laoma a post.
...

man
i wanna sleep
for a week
and dont wake up.

napfa 2.4 re-run tmr.
it's just a 0.01 seconds to an A grade.
...
i thought i would run slower than 15
but in the end.
it aint.
argh.
i think i cant make it tmr.
then too bad for my B.
situps.
sit and reach.
shuttle run.
standing board jump.
inclined pull ups.

tomorrow i promise i will go school early to play monkey bars
and try out inclined.. =.=
i cheated the last time.
how come pull ups use different muscles from push ups.. =.=''
...
shall end here.

time to start my lifeless life.
...
todae i aim to sleep before 12am.
and i wanna take that 615 bus tmr.
AND IF I SEE SHUYING..
you are so going to sit beside a part b guy man ;X
hahahaha

byebye
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