;D

maybe i should make full use of my june holidays..
to stop doing things...

omg,i love zixian man <3<3<3<3<3
he's the only guy.
who auto smiled to me todae.
;D and that smile.
really cheered me up like w00ts~ ;D
and zhaoyuan too
;D always smile and say hi or bye to me ;DD
mien,i love the part b guys.



todae was kinda alright
cuz yesterday i slept while doing that bloody science asg halfway
and i cant believe i actually slept at 1030.
for the first time since school actually started.
morning i was chionging my history on bus 97.
and i was sitting at the back =.=''
lamee shytzz.
damn bumpy.
i do halfway do until i dozed off.
reached school and i forgot what i did.

morning assembly in class.
and i sing national anthem until voice almost *piang* ;/
i'd rather yell my lungs out than SING BEAUTIFULLY
i'd rather be loud and rough than be melodic and ~~~
i'd rather make people deaf than let them enjoy listening to my voice =.='''
oh well,who would care about my croaky voice ;@



pe was first lesson.
re-ran 2.4km.
and i got my A.
;D
2.20
4.40
6.23
9.01
12.27
14.03
i reached my target this year.
and it was better..
i failed my napfa in primary school.
this is cool.
so i am going to tell YOU.
that FAT ppl like me can run too.

later was maths test.
and we were sweating like hell.
i dint know how to do question 2b.
and question 3a & b was combined subst. and elim.
well,since its over then forget it.
yeah,i lent BENSON ~~~ ;DD
my calculator for his test ;DD
then he returned it to me when i returned from pe.
omg,benson is damn cute man <3
and he was kinda reminding me again and again that the maths paper was relli hard.
and he dint get to finish it and told me to becareful.
thanks benson ;D
hope u do well in your test xD


science.
i dozed off in class and kenna caught by ms foo
so she called me to go and write the answer for that alkali question.
chemistry is a killer.
mdm ong is with a baby again ;DD
hahahahahahaha.
grats mdm ong xD
then cheryl was like complaining to us about something o.O
maybe deo will help yeah ;D


recess
eat with class ;D
yaye
i aint being anti social okay? =.=
jennshyang was with us todae ;D
yaye
and when we went back to class.
hubert was trying to bond us again ;X
and yeah,he's kinda right ... ;D


lang arts.
macbeth again.
and that actress is seriously damn cool.
like staff kendrick
lol.
"part b watch your front,part b SEDIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
IiIIIIiIiiiIIiIiIIiIiiIIIIIIiiiiIIIIiiIIiIIiIiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiYA!"
and that lady macbeth in the clip was like "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHhHhHHhHHHhHHHHhhHhHhhhhHHHhhhHHHHHhhh~!"
Lol.
hilarious.
and we are going to do reading sense on monday ;@



later was hcl.
got back papers.
17 for gong han.
my si han was worse.
but still..
mid year still determines the results.
it's close.
and i dont feel like flunking it.
maths and science.
humanities.
languages.
maybe i am trying to care too much.
maybe when i shant care that much,it'll be better.
hcl was kinda boring.
and we have to learn some shytzz ting xie again.
20 cheng yu and must memorise the tang shi.
sighs.
waste my brain cells.


and yeah,i think zixian walked past 2e ;D
then i was staring at him ;DD
i always do that when part b guys walk past my class ^^
then he also looked into my class.
and HE SMILED ;D
aww mien~
<3<3<3<3<3
cool~ i love ya zixian.
lollol,dont tell me you aint smiling to me man ;X
zixian.. althou i dont relli know him as well as the other part b guys.
can tell that he's a reserved person who doesnt like to talk too much.
like me ;D
lols.
he's a nice guy ;D
you know how much that smile meant to me?
it just cheered me up like nobody's business.
cuz it's like the first genuine smile i saw todae.
^^
and zixian is damn cute ;D


let me elaborate more.
it's about runzhong.
dont know what happened to him lor.
his leg bleeding like siao.
scare me like omg lor.
siao.
i asked him what happened he say penknife slid down his leg.
O.O
omg lor,scary.
bloody.
how can a penknife slide down his leg man.
scaryyyyy D;
and last time hanyu also kenna artknife.
the whole blade poke thru hanyu's thigh.
miennnnn.. D;
scaryy guys.. i am scared man D;
and right..
i scared later runzhong tell the specialists he got leg injury cant go ncc =.='''
if he going to do that,i am so going to kill him man.
lollol ;X

i feel like sleeping for the whole day todae.
and now.
after i blog.
i am going to say bye bye and zao sleep.


after hcl was history.
and we went to the tfu studio.
without ms teo D;
lollol.
learnt about the new chap.
about the china 1911 revolution.
and i personally think that the emperor was damn proud and qian bian.
no offence to any peeps.
cuz right.
how can u like ask another king to obey your orders.
and you say you need NOTHING and you have EVERYTHING.
=.=''
i dont know why china history just makes me relli relli interested in it.
last year qin shi huang was simply,wo0ts to everyone.
and i think everyone was like hyper over qin shi huang ;D
maybe i should consider taking up bicultural.
provided that i go take up double nationality and get an A for lang arts this year.
and the eoy.. and more importantly,my friends.
everyone felt that todae's history lesson was like damn fast.
lols.
cuz we went down late you see.
we were late for 10mins man.
cuz of yang lao shi ;X


later was geog.
blah.
geog.
is just a subject.
sighs.



after school.
thank you zhengzhang for helping to do duty ;D
i love you man <3<3<3<3<3


went to eat with felicia and laoma.
cheryl came later
and yang lao shi came to kajiao us.
and call us join bicultural =.=
...
lols.
yang lao shi veh lame lor
and when felicia and cheryl left,i asked him this
"yang lao shi,you dont need to go for lessons meh?"
then i kinda implying that yang lao shi dont kajiao us.
:P
and he was like "you all pity me abit can or not?i veh tired de leh.."
then he said "since you say until like that then i zao liao lor"
hahahaha.
yang lao shi damn cute lor ;X
neh try talking to a teacher like that before.
and i realise yang lao shi keep finding 2e peeps to talk to O.o
lols.



went to jp with laoma and window shopped for presents.
4 more months to go.
but all damn ex.
and i have no more $$,my mom has no more $$.
so i dint buy anything
then me and lao ma went to value $$ to buy snickers for $1.05 ;D
it's damn nice
then we went comic collections
and i love their stuff.
kinda affordable and nice ;D
fun day thou i am sleepy.
thank goodness i aint going crazy again.

yeah.
and it's like that.
for todae.

my hyper level was ultra high.
then it dropped.
no idea why.
my hormones are crazy.
creating a roller coaster graph on my emotions D;



i am sure the reason about me being sad is definitely not about him.
small matter ;P
there are many other chances anyway ;D
i am just too bored D;
nothing to do in my life.
i wanna have something to do
with guys obviously ;P
;D



lollol.
i smsed runzhong to ask about his leg =.=
and he said "small cut only -.- and i dont feel like going for cca next tuesday."
oh my god.
if he dont go for cca next tuesday i going to kick his @$$.
lols,kidding,i aint tat bad yeah ;X
eeyerrr
so bad one.
neh say thank you still suan me D;
lols.
damn funny ;P


i am damn tired.
and i wanna drink water.
i lost damn loads of water todae.
10% lost due to crying in class.
crying as in tears from yawning.
lol.
long time since i cried.
and i dont feel like crying anyway.
i just feel like yelling and yelling and yelling.
about who i love.
about what i love.
about what i seriously hated.
yelling is a form of distress.
crying is,but another form,it's being soft.
like ice cream.


being hard.
being tough.
being strong.
i like it the hard way.
i'd rather you yell into my ears,cuz i know i'll listen.
than.
you spending loads of time counselling me,and nothing goes in.
i wanna try it again
perhaps i wont cry if that happens again.
we're not to laugh.
and go mad.
when it's time to be serious.
CLP QianHui told us to find ourselves.
i dont wanna forget who i am,what i am,where i am.
i remember what i am supposed to do.



OM peeps.
good luck and jiayou again ;D
endure ;D
you all sure can make it.



blah blah blah
alot to do.
and i dont feel like doing anything
.i always dont feel like doing anything.cuz i dont like them.if i do things i love.

.then i will put my heart and soul into it.i am tired of doing everything.

.when nobody actually gives a damn about it.asking you "relli must do arhh?"

.and i always ask myself.why must i do it first?why am i the one who is going to do it?

.maybe that's what i am for.to be in anyone of your teams.it's about how others treated you.

.and how much you really cared.if you're always the one doing it.then might well solo it

8.48 ;D
i am tired todae.
i am sleepy todae.

thanks for the tags.
and i will reply veh soon..