:D...

Blahh..
todae is a very very nice day
had lots of fun.. lots of laughter and crapping..
but just things are bugging me..
questions are just wandering in my head.
i cant find any answers to them.
cuz i am the one who can make the decision.
it doesnt matter what others think.. i must find what's the best for me..
cuz it's my life..

"do i really wanna give up my job as a chair?"
"did they chose me cuz i am just a random person they like?"

sighs.
this post may be offensive.
but please dont take it to heart.
i am NOT targetting or insulting anyone here okay?

todae..
like i said.
went je library with ken,alvin,weining and bernice :D
bernice not from 2e :D she's from 2J :D
lols.
just crapped alot alot alot..
then i just stoned.
cuz i dint know what to do ..
i was reading shui pu zhuan and i got no idea what i read..
i think i was just simply reading for the sake of reading..
and yea..
ALVIN ROCK :D
hahahhaha
"alvin,i love you"
O.o
lols,ken forced bernice to say this :P
okay,com'on let's go back ..
umm..
to this moment when alvin came around 1.30++pm..
he was in black.. :D
everything black with a suitcase or whatever case you call it.
he has his laptop and alvin looked damn cool
omg ... O.O
that's ALVIN~~~ hahahhahaaha :D
see lah... my yan guang very good one okay?
alvin wasnt actually talking at first... o.O
and he played spiderman on his phone..
saving people with falling tables..
Lols..
after that ken came down .. then we went to eat.
crapped and talked..
and ken is a damn nice person :D
lol,he go buy tissue paper from the old old auntie ... mienn lor..
sighs.. this type of guy is first time i meet de okay?
but i aint interested :P
HAHAHHAHAHAHA
NO OFFENCE~~ but still ken's a nice guy :D
hahahaha :D
and he just kinda brought up the chairperson thing..
sighs..

blah.
i needa start the discussion now.
here.
and i have been thinking about it.
since the second ken mentioned it to me.
"do i really wanna give up my job as a chair?"
"did they chose me cuz i am just a random person they like?"
"do they still trust me now?"
"do they still like me now?"
giving it up is a choice.
like terence's pm.. since it's so hard to bear,why not just give it?
but the question is .. do i relli wanna give up?
it's march..
i wanna give up.. it's not too late.
just before the investiture.. it's not too late.
if i give it up.
i will have freedom.
and i dont need to worry about so many things.
if the class gets the homework from teachers.
if the class hands up their homework.
if i am tearing the class up into pieces and not bonding them instead.
if i am responsible for anything the class did.
if i am responsible to shout at the class to call them to shut up.
if i am responsible to make them line up in twos and move as a class.
.
.
.
.
.
hmm.. cant think of anything else right now.
but i am sure there're more yea?
i dont need to worry about how others look at me if i give it up.
they will not call me "eh,chairperson"
they will call me by my name.. hanyu will call me "da ma" :)
like how he did last year..
it doesnt feel good for ur frens to call you "chairperson" here and "chairperson" there
so what if you're the chairperson?
then if you're the chairperson,you cant anyhow fool around anymore..
just cuz you're the chairperson,people will always stare at you..
just cuz you're the chairperson,you cant afford to make any mistakes..
just cuz you're the chairperon,you are expected to do everything well...
just cuz you're the chairperson,you are responsible for everything..
just cuz you're the chairperson,you must bear whatever shyt others give you..
.
.
.
just cuz you're the chairperson..
hey,i am complaining okay?
I AM COMPLAINING.
find me a nuisance please.
cuz i am actually complaining when others aint doing the same..
i am a n00b.
i am a fool.
i am just a dumb person.
since i am so stressed cuz i am the chairperson..
why not just give up and be a HAPPY normal person?
since that day,i aint happy at all..
sighs...

i dint even have the time to love someone..
someone i used to look at every single day..
someone i used to say hi and bye to every single day..
someone i used to smile at every single day ..
someone i used to admire every single day..
someone who used to be my eye candy and i would never feel unhappy with him around..
i neglected that feeling of trying to love someone..
who doesnt love like me ..
hanyu said this to me.. "find someone who likes you then :)"
hard.
it's almost impossible...
D;
he likes some other girl and i still acting like a fool..
this are some personal views okay?
i am still who i am.
but looking into that boy's eyes makes me feel so cool :)
i dont even have the time to look at guys..
guys... i always went crazy over them...
that's past tense.
HOLY~!
how can a chair who doesnt love her class be a chair?
what a joke...
i tried to love them but i realise i cant..
how can i love them as a whole when there are grey sheeps.
please infer from the 2 words "grey sheeps"
lols.there aint a thing called sheeps in the world =.='''

sighs
they say i am nice.
just 1 word -nice.
they voted for me @.@
i think i brain washed them or what last year...
i am feeling damn damn guilty okay?
they must have regretted voting for me.
trust me.
most of the peeps regretted it.
com'on just look at their faces then you'll know =.='''
and they dont trust me anymore.
so everything's pointless.
cuz they dont trust you,they dont listen to you.
cuz they just think that u are some shyt shouting like a mad bit*h
sorry for insulting myself.
=.=''
i am being stupid again..

another view is that its a challenge.
why should i give up so easily?
:D
lols.
this is damn positive nia.
resilience shytzz @.@
sighs.
since it's difficult.
why not think of ways to make it easier?
giving up isnt my style of living anyway.
:D
despite all those limits and troubles.
i can try to balance them out and listen to more advice from my frens..
and maybe i can talk to some SENSIBLE people about it too :D
this is sibei positive nia..
lols.
i dont know seriously.
but this side of the whole thing actually has a greater percentage.
i dont relli wanna give it up @.@
awww..
shytzz lor.
am i really complaining too much?
lols.
enduring but complaining isnt a nice thing.. D;
let me think about it more okay?
i am always complaining.
i am acting like a SINGAPOREAN.. =.=''
oh shytzz.
maybe things will get better.. :)
and i will talk MORE to TERENCE...
hopefully he dont act cool and dao me like some shytzz =.='''
okay.. communication HELPS alot okay? :D

LET ME THINK ...
argh.. =.=''
maybe i should act like someone who dont need to bear all the responsibilities.
cuz there's terence around too~! ... @.@
i am being lamee..
okay ... come on let's get back to je library :D
lols

and yea..
after eating.. we went back to the library..
alvin was playing spiderman .. on his phone lols..
then a whole lot of crap happened lor..
got this event or incident or whatever that PeiHao came down to look for Bernice..
then they wenta hide or sth liddat..
lols..
to be true..
the time at the library was RELLI BORING until we started playing games..
alvin asked this "is it fun to do homework?"
the answer is no =.=''
....
tired of doing my stuff so i go throw everything at the side... lols.
Alvin played POKEMON on his laptop :D
wahahhahaha,he said he caught MEW 2 @.@~~~
using a cheat code..
lols.
it sounded like "chikot" then i thought it was some BIRD POKEMON @.@
ZZzZzzZzzZ..
then Ken played Naruto.. which was transformed from little fighter 2... =.='''
Lols.
and Sakura's skills ARE SO COOL...!!!!
hahahahaha :D
then yea.. weining needa go le..
so yea..
then crap more more more...
we talked about more personal stuffs .. lols..
:D
and i was a noob guesser @.@
some rather shocking news~ :D
it's a happy thing okay?
its not VERY SHOCKING in that sense :D
but still~~
i got only 30% suspect there's such a possibility only lor..
hahahahhaa
THAT WAS RELLI COOL OKAY?
hahahaha :D
and Alvin's charger IS SCREWED..
ahhh and alvin gonna cry already...
we crapped damn loads and i was like so hyper ~~ :D
lolss..
hahahha
after finish crapping..
alvin,ken and bernice + me wenta imm to have dinner :D

AND ALVIN IS DAMN COOL .. :D
lols.
and dont you think alvin is damn shuai too?
:D
haha
ALVIN IS ADORABLE~~ :P
adorable is cute + shuai okay? :D
i am praising alvin :P
hahhahaa
be honoured alvin xD
cant bring myself to say "i love you alvin" infront of him @.@
LOLS
i am being damn stupid okay?
=.=''
and i aint as open minded as ken :P
hahhahaha
ken is seriously MAD..
and insane..
Lols~!
he went onto the road and walk on it as if it's his father's road lor.
LOLS!!
and its damn damn funny..
walk walk walk then see car come and immediately fly to the side.
VERY DANGEROUS OKAY?
but its damn damn funny..
the rest of us were like laughing like mad
hahahhahaha
lols
and we chat about the topic we were chatting about.. :D
hahahaha
THAT HAPPY THING~~
chat chat chat then we go imm burger king eat burger..
lols.
and alvin is damn damn cute :D
okay wait man.
i think i am starting to look at guys again~~ :D
and i think ken is shuai okay~ :D
and KEN IS A DAMN NICE PERSON~ :D
bernice also damn nice okay?
hahaha,although i just know her for less than 24 hours.. :D
she's damn damn nice lor :D hahahhahahaha :D
hahaha
THIS MARCH HOLIDAY ROCK EXCEPT FOR BLOODY HOMEWORK :D
HAHAHAHHAHAA
i feel so relaxed without going into class and getting a whole day full of shytzz in my brain :D
you know shytzz is a nice word?
:D
hahahhahaha
i love typing shytzz i dont know why :P
:D:D:D:D:D
feel so happy typing it..
O.o
okay,i am stupid @.@
i am n00b..
whatever~~
shytzz :D
i miss zhengzhang :D
oops.. shh... did anyone see this line?? @.@
hahaha
alvin is damn damn cute ..
mienn..
it was such a long time since i had a good look at alvin :D
his eyes are like x.x
they're cute..
:D
i love hanyu's eyes the most.. cuz it gives you the passion ..
there's hope and there's this never-die feeling in hanyu's eyes :D
COOL!!!
I LOVE HANYU'S EYES~
and of cuz i love hanyu too :D
hahahhaha
sheesh man.
i love alvin too :D
i love ken too :D
i love bernice too :D
and yea.. i love zhengzhang too :D

so yea..
we were eating burger~~:D
and crapped a little..
after that went to daiso ..
ken wanted to buy HONEY la bi xiao xin biscuits~ :P
but in the end he bought candy drops :D
lols!!
what happened after that was SIMPLY CRAZY
!!!!
LOLS!!!
had DAMN DAMN DAMN LOADS OF FUN AND LAUGHING LIKE SIAOOOO
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
we went outside..
to the water playground..
LITTLE KIDDIES ARE PLAYING WITH WATER THERE..
and the 4 of us..
went there to mess around with them...
LOLSSS
AHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
we're all afraid of getting wet but have the urge to go and play water :D
lolsss..
then ken was like damn damn crazy...
LOLSS!!!
he go take off his slippers and thru it into the water playground with loads of water there.
Lolsss
then he go take rope from his bag.. and tried to get them back @.@
LOLSS!!!
alvin was like laughing until he almost choked.
HAHAHHAHAHHAHA
Lols..
bernice was like laughing and laughing non stop..
and i was umm .. @.@ but laughing too @.@
it's damn damn funny lorrr
hahahhahahahhahaa
LOLSS
then got the "water break" time
when all the water stop coming out from the metal pipes..
then ken go walk around the pipes..
later the water suddenly gush out then he run away like o.o
LOLSSS
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
LOL!!!!!
ITS DAMN DAMN FUNNY LIKE SIAO LORRRR
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA
we crapped alot at the water playground there doing childish stuff~
yea.. like what ken said.. we're young by heart..
AND HE STOLE ALVIN'S SENTENCE ... LOLS
HAHHAHAHAHHAHA :D
hmm..
we played and played like siao.
LOLS
hahahhaha
had damn damn damn loads of fun :D
then we walked to je station there..
lols.
the 3 other peeps went to joo koon O.O
haha.
then i waved goodbye.. :D

todae..
talked about relli random topics like ERH HEM
hair.. in the toilet..
THAT WAS DAMN SICK OKAY?
LOLS
HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA :P
then we talked about personal feelings and all that..
HAHAHHAHHA lols~~
nice one peeps~
love you all like siao :D

the below are my relli relli inner words
i've never imagined that i've got this day to go for such outings :)
i love that man.. :D
and i've never imagined i could ever go for some outings with alvin.. NOT ALONE @.@
lols.
I AM BEING LAMEE LA..
but right..
alvin... :D
i've never ever thought of that..
and i dint screw today up :D
yaye~!
haha
:D

ITS A DAMN FUNNY AND NICE DAY~~~!!!
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
and i am SCREWED cuz my homework not done
shytzz like siao
dammit man.
later I DIE DIE DIE DIE ALSO MUST FINISH MY HISTORY!!!
AND MY 10 CHAPTERS OF SHUI PU ZHUAN!!!
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE~~~
HAHAHHAHAHAHAA
slacking is a nice thing to do
CUZ HOMEWORK SUCKS
:P
shytzz
i dont wanna do my macbeth ws or whatever crap lor..
I DONT KNOW WHAT SHAKESPEARE IS WRITING MIEN..
awww miennn....
SOBS..
English literature is like torturing me with alien language~
lols.
hahahhahahha

alright~!!
:D
THANKS TO THE PEEPS BELOW AGAIN!!! :D:D:D

-ken
-alvin
-bernice
-weining

:D
THANKS TO ALL FOUR
LOVE YOU PEEPS LIKE HELL :D
HAHAHHAHAHAHHA
:D:D:D:D
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

haha.
jingfei is just a random person :D
just a random rumour..
:D
COME ON BE A MAN~
DO THE RIGHT THING :D

i love yesterday.
i love todae..
:D

and yea..
ALVIN ROCK.
ALVIN'S ADORABLE :D:D
HAHAHAHAHHAHAA
omg,i love alvin :D
shytzz :D
last time i said "i love you" to Louis... hahaha and he was like tio stunned.
hahahhahaha
damn funny :P
that was a forfeit :P
CUZ I LOST TO LAOMA'S BET
that i will get into fit for life.
okay.
sheesh~~
i must go run 2.4 every single morning from now on mienn..
and do alot alot alot alot of inclinded pull ups..
then must stretch like siao and then must do alot alot alot alot sit ups :D
then must keep jumping jumping jumping like siao..
AHHH!!!!
I WANT A GOLD FOR NAPFA AGAIN THIS YEAR
cuz i wanna show HER that FAT PEOPLE LIKE ME can ALSO GET A GOLD FOR NAPFA.
and i wanna show mr keith that too.. cuz he thought i failed my napfa last year...

YEAAA
YANG LAO SHI CALLED MY MOM IN THE AFTERNOON..
HE SAID HE DIDNT WANNA MEET MY PARENTS AGAIN!!!
AND HE ASKED ME TO TAKE UP BICULTURAL STUDIES..
oh crap..
i think forget it man..
SIGHS..
I DONT WANNA BE IN CLASS 3B...
@.@
sighs.
CHOOSING SUBJ. COMBI. IS LIKE CHOOSING UR HUSBAND =.=''
HAHHAHAHA
what a lameee description @.@

LOLSSSS
HAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHHAA
GEOK KEEPS SAYING I GOT MOOD SWING~~!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
BUT RIGHT.
THIS IS ME~~
I AM NORMAL DURING THE HOLIDAYS OKAY??
HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA :D

i had a damn damn nice day :D
hahahhaha.
and yea.
thanks to ken for calling alvin out.. :D

todae..
i met 2 new frens too :D
weining and bernice! :D
yaye~
i shall go now..

later i chiong my history..
:D

okay..
now i zao le
bai bai :D