oh mien

this is some crap post of complaint.
you could ignore it and read the next next post down there..
cuz it's more interesting than reading my complaints..
Lols.

sharks lah.
i dont feel like even revising for maths.
and science prac. retest tmr..
oh whatever.
=.=
sometimes i just dont even feel like bothering about anything..
cuz its just the hormones in my body making me do that or whatever..
now i just wanna like blog and blog and blog =.=
cuz i am a blog addict,you see..

well..
tmr..
should i even take the early bus?
when i am so damn tired..
YiMing & EeSheng or 2e guys?
Lol.
seriously lah..
i rather see my company mates..
cuz they will like wave and say hello to me.. with SMILES..
take note of the SMILES..
Lols.
BRAVO RAWK @$$~!
hmm.. that's not my point here..
though.. Lol.

sometimes i wished i havent got that
cuz its unnecessary stress added up upon you.
well,i got sth from HIM that student leaders are actually graded.
i was like oh wtf?!
in RV.. every single thing is graded.
what the hell is RV's problem .. =.=
and yup back to i wished i havent got that.
i dont even think i am capable of handling a class of 34 people..
screw ..
cuz its not like you are the IC of an NCC platoon..
where there's discipline and your men act according to your orders..
maybe to them..
it's sorta too over .. cuz they dont know what is DISCIPLINE in UGs..
ALL UGs have MORE DISCIPLINE compared to other CCAs..
I EMPHASISE ALL UGs..
:)
sharks.
i seriously dont wanna do things that i dont like.
todae i was like so in the "whatever" mood..
right after recess..
cuz its like the OTHER half of my class dao us..
the ANOTHER half of us..
that's nothing new..
its like we are a class.. =.=
yea.. a class..
i know i am bad to talk about this on my blog lah.
and i know i cant make my post so GAN REN like Hubert's post :X
sadistic..
i need to do what i need to do?
yes.
but do i need to do things that i dont like but need to do?
maybe.
depends.
on my heart.
most of the time i listen to my heart.
Lol.
some crap i have there..

anyways.
just now i saw JingFei's MSN name.
its like ..
"what the FUCK is wrong with 2E? Cant you just give ks a chance?"
i felt a little guilty..
even JF thought that way..
Felicia said that KaiSong is not bad too..
I agreed to that..
But just the majority of the class .. wanted Alvin to go..
aww such a complicated thing..
I think this is bias..
I just think that sometimes.. we are all against KaiSong..
But there are times that we must try to think about him too..
Perhaps.. we are his only frens..
I dont see KaiSong hanging out with anyone actually..
SIAN.. why am i doing this?..
Like what Terence said.. and he suggested to Mr Keith..
AND I SERIOUSLY THINK TERENCE RAWK FOR THE FIRST TIME..
Lol.
he suggested that tmr morning.. the 3 nominated guys go give impromptu ..
for mr keith to judge..
yes.
and those 2 he chose shall be the finalists.
this is the best way.. find a teacher for help..
when necessary.. Lols.
haha.

perhaps i am just too dependent..
on myself.. o.O

perhaps i am just too selfish..
just think about myself..

perhaps i just got that sucky attitude of "whatever" and "hack care"
that i just dont bother at all

perhaps i am just not expressive enough..
not getting straight to the point..

perhaps i am just too not aware of the surroundings..
not aware of what others need..

perhaps i am just not suitable for that..
but why.

the question is why..
why me?
and not others.

i know for a reason that the class gave me that vote..
just cuz i am nice to them..
and i dont offend them..
this is just pure bias-ness..
that i am like such a fake person who smile to them..
and make them shuang..
just cuz i dint make them buay song me..
just cuz that they dont understand me enuf..
just cuz they just look at what i've got on the outside..
they just dont understand me enuf...
i just feel very.. bad about that..
yes.
it's that.
this is using your skills to cheat and scam your classmates.
and i think i did that.
what do you all see in me?
i dont understand at all.
all that u guys say is "responsible"..
oh yea,i am responsible? yeayea,very responsible indeed.
u guys say "nice"
oh yea right,I am a nice person.. as if.
so that's all u see in me.
what crap.
u think too highly of me.
thank you very much.

i dont dare to do things sometimes..
cuz i am too used to not offending anyone..
cuz i just dont wanna get unnecessary trouble..
dont you think getting troubles with your own hands is tiring?

i understood why my ex-chair did all that..
cuz u dont understand anything.
and u just ASSUME that everything is like that..
and u just hate and dont like that person cuz she somehow offended you..
i just think that i am just some damn childish person last year..
yea right,we all just say chairpersons just threaten us with that damn diary..
oh well.. we do.. yea right,we do threaten you guys.. =.=..
well,i think i am just too stupid.. and dont understand anything..
how stupid,how foolish.
here i have to admit that i didnt like my ERH HEM..
ex-chair.. =.= alright.. =.= perhaps there's only 1 =.=
oh mien,i am seriously damn sorry..
but since last year..
i got nth of that..
seriously.. :)
okay whatever.
i like everyone in 2e.. =.=
cuz i just think that if u dont like that person..
and that person know that u dont like her..
then that person wont like you too cuz u dont like her..
what's the point?
there's no form of understanding and communication at all in that situation..
=.=
oh sharks.
its 8.36PM..
shoot.
I going to GiGi tmr..
die larh..

tmr must collect damn consent forms..
2e is a damn damn damn damn DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN NICEEE CLASS..
except when it comes to collecting consent forms and asking them not to talk so loud..
and Terence shouldnt ask the class to shut up =.=
"shut up" is a rude phrase man..
i havent used "shut up" for a damn long time ..
Lols.
i cant do that "SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" sound loud enuf..
but i can shout louder than them..
so what do u think i should do?
shouting when the class is yelling like mad =.=
todae was damn cool.

2e: !##^$&^%^*^%(&^)^&*%^
Alvin : "Shhhhhh..."
Hubert : "SHHHHHHHHHHH..."
ZhengZhang : " SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!"

Lols.
i was about to shout le then suddenly Alvin "shhh"
after all their damn loud "SHHHHHHH"
the class got quiet leh..
COOL RIGHT?
oh mien..
this is a polite form of calling the class to keep quiet..

but i cant do that..
i just shout "2e,xiao sheng yi dian!!"
then HuiWen asked me "so you not asking us not to talk but talk softer right?"
and I answered yup..
this is a rude but yet more polite way of asking the class to keep quiet..
at least better than "eh,shut up lah~" ... i dont think anyone can hear :X

that damn diary is a form of communication..
recording down names in the beta record..
=.=
sharks la.
please please please dont take that for granted..
this is like damn serious.

"Not Being Able To Keep The Class Quiet" = an offence..
"Not Being Able To Collect Consent Forms On Dead Line" = another offence..
"Not Being Able To Move Class Orderly" = another offence..
ETC.
...

8.45pm now..
i bet i should go and sleep..
but..
i just feel so uncomfortable..
like what is going to happen tmr..
sharks..
later we see the maths paper relli tio stunned..
die die die die die die die
WHY I HAVENT SEE MRS CHAK SINCE MONDAY?!

sh00t.